The smell of coffee is so enticing, as I listen to the musical stylings of a man, who could serenade me any day. I feel the warmth of coffee sooths my soul. As I listen I wonder who this man is and how do I make him fall in love with me. Any man who is musically talented has a place in my heart. Besides wonder if he is single and ready to mingle, I just enjoy his talent and his love for what he’s doing.
I love my job as a resident advisor, and am preparing to love my future in ultrasound. I will still think what if, what if I pursued my dream and love for music. I have done auditions, but have yet to catch a break. I think the toughest part is having to do the auditions without my parents full approval. I know they want all my dreams to come true, but are worried that it will lead me to a dead end. Last year I was given the opportunity to try out for a TV show that might help fulfill my dreams of a career in music, I was planning to make the trip to Chicago by myself like I had many times before. One spring afternoon I had incoming call from my parents. My parents called to inform me that my whole family would be making the tip with me to support me at my audition. At that moment I could have broke down and cried, I couldn’t have been happier. I finally had what I wanted the full support of my family. Unfortunately my dreams came to a screeching halt a few days later, when my parents called to tell me they were unable to go. With such little time to create a new plan I had to forgo the trip. As I watch the show that I could have been on I’m left with the I wonder if that was my chance.
Music is my life, a passion that I will never give up on and something I will die trying to let my voice be heard. This musical man is just like me, in every way and I applaud him as he continues his jorney.
Moral of the story: Pursue something you are passionate about or regret and wonder why you never did.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Dorthy was Lucky She Just Had to Follow the Yellow Brick Road
How do we know which paths in life are the ones for us to take? If were wrong, can we just push a button that says restart level? What if putting yourself out their does nothing, you’re your stuck? These questions might be the ones streaming through my mind and be the reason for my sleepless nights.
I am in the process of changing my major from Nursing to Medical Diagnostic Sonography (MDS) is the professional name, but really it’s just a fancy way to say I’m going to do ultrasounds. I think I am really going to enjoy it based upon the fact that I love children and I get to watch a fetus/ baby grow and see the new changes every month. Or I get to tell the person in pain that they have a rather large kidney stone that they have to wait for the lovely thing to pass lol. Either way I think I will be happy doing that. The whole process of making the switch is a pain, no one is in their office since its summer, so we just e-mail constantly. I’m happy for the help none the less.
Money for me is a huge issue at the moment. I need it! I work, yes its only two shifts a week but something is better than nothing. I’ll take what I can get. I wish I could plant a money tree that blooms beautiful Benjamin’s, U.S. Grant’s, Hamilton’s, and even some Washington’s because ones are sometimes useful. I would frolic with a basket to that tree and just pick enough to get by. I’m not a greedy person I don’t need a lot just enough to pay for tuition and daily living expenses….maybe a coke slush every now and then…I’m nervous to graduate because I will be up to my eye balls in debt, that worries me a lot. When I’m done with school it is suppose to be opening a new chapter full of opportunity and excitement, but I can’t help but dread the day when I get the loan bill every month. Will it be so costly that I’ll have to live with my parents??? I love them to death, but I need to be able to support myself. I just need to work…..a lot. I’ll move on so I don’t bore and move on the juicy gossip haha….
I met this guy who is really phenomenal. I think the words that describe him best are Crazy smart, workaholic, funny, caring, is surprisingly good a phase ten, likes movies, video games, is lazy, dislikes driving, and has the cheesiest smile. He is truly one of a kind. How did our friendship start haha well…..I got the RA job as I stated in a past blog and he was the first member of the staff to offer a friendly hello. At first I was kinda weirded out, he fb creeped me lol. We had a few late night chats while he was working desk and I needed help on the papers that needed outside inspiration. From there we just go to know one another asking legit questions or just random ones. We talk about any and everything we are great friends. After awhile I stared to like him….more than just friends. Once I told him this, it felt like it took forever for him to respond, I received the lets keep it friends for now and see where it leads later on. Alright that’s fair enough. He is having a wonderful experience with his summer job and from what he has said he is pretty pro. He can’t talk a bunch due the fact that his job is demanding and once he has free time he is drained which is completely understandable. So were going to do a weekly e-mail, crazy, fun, random, and of course humorous. Hopefully that goes well. I’ve fallen hard for him when really, it may lead to nothing but a good friendship which I have no problem with that. It’s just the wondering and waiting part is the killer! O well I don’t want to get my hopes up, it’s better to be pleasantly surprised rather than devastatingly disappointed.
Cross your fingers and toes, that the life I’ve chosen turns out to be what I want haha.
I am in the process of changing my major from Nursing to Medical Diagnostic Sonography (MDS) is the professional name, but really it’s just a fancy way to say I’m going to do ultrasounds. I think I am really going to enjoy it based upon the fact that I love children and I get to watch a fetus/ baby grow and see the new changes every month. Or I get to tell the person in pain that they have a rather large kidney stone that they have to wait for the lovely thing to pass lol. Either way I think I will be happy doing that. The whole process of making the switch is a pain, no one is in their office since its summer, so we just e-mail constantly. I’m happy for the help none the less.
Money for me is a huge issue at the moment. I need it! I work, yes its only two shifts a week but something is better than nothing. I’ll take what I can get. I wish I could plant a money tree that blooms beautiful Benjamin’s, U.S. Grant’s, Hamilton’s, and even some Washington’s because ones are sometimes useful. I would frolic with a basket to that tree and just pick enough to get by. I’m not a greedy person I don’t need a lot just enough to pay for tuition and daily living expenses….maybe a coke slush every now and then…I’m nervous to graduate because I will be up to my eye balls in debt, that worries me a lot. When I’m done with school it is suppose to be opening a new chapter full of opportunity and excitement, but I can’t help but dread the day when I get the loan bill every month. Will it be so costly that I’ll have to live with my parents??? I love them to death, but I need to be able to support myself. I just need to work…..a lot. I’ll move on so I don’t bore and move on the juicy gossip haha….
I met this guy who is really phenomenal. I think the words that describe him best are Crazy smart, workaholic, funny, caring, is surprisingly good a phase ten, likes movies, video games, is lazy, dislikes driving, and has the cheesiest smile. He is truly one of a kind. How did our friendship start haha well…..I got the RA job as I stated in a past blog and he was the first member of the staff to offer a friendly hello. At first I was kinda weirded out, he fb creeped me lol. We had a few late night chats while he was working desk and I needed help on the papers that needed outside inspiration. From there we just go to know one another asking legit questions or just random ones. We talk about any and everything we are great friends. After awhile I stared to like him….more than just friends. Once I told him this, it felt like it took forever for him to respond, I received the lets keep it friends for now and see where it leads later on. Alright that’s fair enough. He is having a wonderful experience with his summer job and from what he has said he is pretty pro. He can’t talk a bunch due the fact that his job is demanding and once he has free time he is drained which is completely understandable. So were going to do a weekly e-mail, crazy, fun, random, and of course humorous. Hopefully that goes well. I’ve fallen hard for him when really, it may lead to nothing but a good friendship which I have no problem with that. It’s just the wondering and waiting part is the killer! O well I don’t want to get my hopes up, it’s better to be pleasantly surprised rather than devastatingly disappointed.
Cross your fingers and toes, that the life I’ve chosen turns out to be what I want haha.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Birthdays Come and Birthdays Go
Today is a momentous day!
Alison Joy Tackaberry turns 20 today! Can you believe it?….I can’t. I am sad that I can be there to celebrate with her and her family. I will spend this blog just talking about her, I know she will enjoy that haha. So I am going to list 10 read it 10 reasons why Alison is such a good friend!
1. She hangs out with me when I’m deathly sick, had wisdom teeth out, or bored out of my mind.
2. She goes into a tiny fort and acts like a child with me, at least once a year.
3. We serenade each other with cheesy songs randomly. (You’re jealous I know.)
4. She goes on fast food runs at midnight.
5. She shares her amazing family with me!
6. She makes up crazy words like Flabberzooks!
7. She drinks more coffee than anyone I know.
8. She can sit in my basement for hours on end watching movies, tv shows, and playing video games.
9. She loves road trips, and picking me up haha maybe not the second one…
10. She is crazy, fun, fabulous, amazing, stupendous, and much more!
Al has been there for everything, she is honestly the best friend you could ask for. I will conclude this blog with a song…..just for you Al. You’re beautiful you’re beautiful it’s true. Hey al you so fine you so fine you blow my mind ya Alison. You are the wind beneath my wings. I’d catch a grandee for ya, throw my hand on a blade for ya, jump in front of a plane for ya. When I see your face there’s not a thing I would change cause you’re amazing just the way you are. Happy 20th Al do it big! Have fun and don’t forget you’re the best!
Alison Joy Tackaberry turns 20 today! Can you believe it?….I can’t. I am sad that I can be there to celebrate with her and her family. I will spend this blog just talking about her, I know she will enjoy that haha. So I am going to list 10 read it 10 reasons why Alison is such a good friend!
1. She hangs out with me when I’m deathly sick, had wisdom teeth out, or bored out of my mind.
2. She goes into a tiny fort and acts like a child with me, at least once a year.
3. We serenade each other with cheesy songs randomly. (You’re jealous I know.)
4. She goes on fast food runs at midnight.
5. She shares her amazing family with me!
6. She makes up crazy words like Flabberzooks!
7. She drinks more coffee than anyone I know.
8. She can sit in my basement for hours on end watching movies, tv shows, and playing video games.
9. She loves road trips, and picking me up haha maybe not the second one…
10. She is crazy, fun, fabulous, amazing, stupendous, and much more!
Al has been there for everything, she is honestly the best friend you could ask for. I will conclude this blog with a song…..just for you Al. You’re beautiful you’re beautiful it’s true. Hey al you so fine you so fine you blow my mind ya Alison. You are the wind beneath my wings. I’d catch a grandee for ya, throw my hand on a blade for ya, jump in front of a plane for ya. When I see your face there’s not a thing I would change cause you’re amazing just the way you are. Happy 20th Al do it big! Have fun and don’t forget you’re the best!
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Single and Suffering
Valentine’s Day has made its lovely appearance as it does every year.
Honestly, I love the holiday; if it is even is a holiday…It is a day where us hopeless romantics can be as hopeful as we want. For that one day we can believe that today is the day, our prince is going to sweep us off our feet, or even that our bf/gf will do something that is romantic and cute.
My hopeless dream….first that I find a guy, that would be nice, but I just want a guy to plan out something cute. Like sing a cheesy love song, romantic dinner, or even go ice skating or sledding. I’m not looking for a prince, just a good guy…
Cora tells me that if I look for love I won’t find it, but what if love never finds me? One of my biggest fears is ill never get married, silly I know. I’d like to have a family and kids. I’ll be honest I can’t wait to have kids.
In my nineteen years on this earth I have had one bf, who ended up being a jerk. I have never had luck with guys, I either get out in the friend zone or they just don’t see me like that…..sweet right. I recently had this school girl crush on a guy I work with he was a fun guy, who is from a small town, has good morals and overall nice guy… I asked him to hangout a few times, but he bailed a majority of the time. We hungout a few times and have had some really good conversations. Needless to say he is not over his ex, at ALL! He likes this other girl though it is very obvious, she is very pretty, parties a lot, and dresses to attract the guys…. She has a bf, but you can tell she likes bailey Mc bailster as well. You shouldn’t be able to have both that’s all I have to say.
I think I have a lot to offer someone; I’m not the most beautiful women in the world, but I’m not bad looking. I have morals, values, and have a good personality. When will all the guys stop looking for the shanks and realize they are only going to give them heartbreaks and diseases….
O well ill just continue to wait it out, for now I’m still single and suffering……
Honestly, I love the holiday; if it is even is a holiday…It is a day where us hopeless romantics can be as hopeful as we want. For that one day we can believe that today is the day, our prince is going to sweep us off our feet, or even that our bf/gf will do something that is romantic and cute.
My hopeless dream….first that I find a guy, that would be nice, but I just want a guy to plan out something cute. Like sing a cheesy love song, romantic dinner, or even go ice skating or sledding. I’m not looking for a prince, just a good guy…
Cora tells me that if I look for love I won’t find it, but what if love never finds me? One of my biggest fears is ill never get married, silly I know. I’d like to have a family and kids. I’ll be honest I can’t wait to have kids.
In my nineteen years on this earth I have had one bf, who ended up being a jerk. I have never had luck with guys, I either get out in the friend zone or they just don’t see me like that…..sweet right. I recently had this school girl crush on a guy I work with he was a fun guy, who is from a small town, has good morals and overall nice guy… I asked him to hangout a few times, but he bailed a majority of the time. We hungout a few times and have had some really good conversations. Needless to say he is not over his ex, at ALL! He likes this other girl though it is very obvious, she is very pretty, parties a lot, and dresses to attract the guys…. She has a bf, but you can tell she likes bailey Mc bailster as well. You shouldn’t be able to have both that’s all I have to say.
I think I have a lot to offer someone; I’m not the most beautiful women in the world, but I’m not bad looking. I have morals, values, and have a good personality. When will all the guys stop looking for the shanks and realize they are only going to give them heartbreaks and diseases….
O well ill just continue to wait it out, for now I’m still single and suffering……
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Embarking on Change
I have had a lot going on in my life over the last year.
School: I’m a sophomore in college finishing my basics and a semester away from applying for my program. I take all these classes and I know they are meant to test you, but I am unable to pass them. I come to every class, do the work, study and am still failing constantly. My program puts so much pressure on the students, that it just makes classes that much more stressful. There is always that thought in the back of your mind “what if I can’t pass.”
On the bright side I applied for another job on campus to be an RA…..and I got it. That means no more cleaning dishes after this summer.
Speaking of summer, I’m spending my summer taking classes…here I come anatomy 2 hours 4 days a week, with 2 lab days on top of that. Plus another online class, tally all that up and it adds to 8 credits.
Friends: I ended my high school career with five really good friends. After my first year of college we all were pretty close, but sadly this year some of our group has drifted apart. Over the summer some unfortunate events happened causing a rift in the friendship, it was all quite stupid and petty, but some are still holding on to a grudge. I think everyone should have a best friend….I know I have at least one. She is my “person” we get each other’s jokes when others don’t and laugh about nothing. She is the one person I never get tired of. She is so crazy and fun I couldn’t imagine my life without her in it. She has had some barriers in her way over the past year. I was lost as to how to help her until I realized I can’t. I can support her in whatever she chooses, but ultimately she has to make the decisions. Sometimes I think though what if she never gets out of the rut she is stuck in, she will always be my best friend no matter what, but she worries me sometimes. She tends to get down on herself, but she needs to know what an amazing woman she is and how she has so much going for her, and that one day she is going to be the greatest mom and wife. She will do great things!
I also have another close friend who has definitely grown on me through the past two years; she has had a lot of drama lately for her. From a hard break-up to losing her step dad suddenly. She is my total opposite she is more reserved, highly intelligent, and a clean freak (I mean this w/love). At school I’m with here whenever I’m not at work, sleeping, or in class most of the time we sit and do nothing. We work well with each other because when she has been studying all day and has done nothing else, I make her take a break to do something fun. I mean we once stood in front of a mirror for an hour making faces at one another. Yes we both have time where we get on each other’s nerves, but like the saying opposites attract.
One last friend to mention and then I’ll move on. Now this girl is the most gorgeous girl you will ever see. She has the perfect smile, and is so driven. She works hard for everything she wants she currently holds five jobs now (crazy right)! She has struggled with her family at times, but somehow manages to never let it get to her. She has an amazing boyfriend that cares so much for her, their so cute it’s enough to make you sick. I’m hoping they get married soon!
Family: I have the best family in the world ( I know everyone say that, but its true)! My parent have always been there for me and my sisters, they have been at every soccer game, choir concert, teacher conferences, and even births. They have recently trying to lose weight and have succeeded tremendously. My dad of course lost weight like it was no body’s business, and my mom has done so well for women it takes longer, but she looks great! My dad is such a good dad, he is no typical guy…he loves the movie Mama Mia, and hairspray, he is a great cook, you can really tell he loves my mom dearly. Now for my mom she is seriously amazing! I love her we get along so well she is definitely another one of my best friends. She cracks me up with her sense of humor, I love spending time with her.
Jody, Jason, and Naomi are put in one group because their a family. I’ll start with Jody she is a great mom and a wonderful sister, I know she will always be there for me when I need her. We talk on a regular basis. She is yet another one of my best friend; it’s hard to describe her in words, but if I could it would be all good ones. She is very beautiful inside and out! Jason is the best brother in-law I could have asked for, he is competitive and such a great guy. He is the perfect dad and husband. Me and him get along really well! As for Naomi, she is the light of my life! She is my almost two year old niece, who is a little pistol. She is such a cutie and has a personality that will make anyone smile. She makes me laugh and smile so much. She has given her parents and family quite a few scares, but I’m so happy she has been so strong and stuck with us. I will love her forever. I hope they have more kids id say they have been doing a pretty darn good job with Naomi.
Jamie is my other sister we are close some days and then others we're not. She is so smart and also beautiful. She has hugs that could break your ribs. She is very caring and a great person and yes I love her. I do like her boyfriend Joe and hope the best for their relationship.
Health: I myself made a new year’s resolution, I know that most don’t work out, but I’m determined. I go to the gym everyday at 6am; I have been going strong with this for about a month and a week. So far I’ve lost 14 pounds I’m getting closer and closer to my goal every week. I hope to continue this journey and reach my ultimate goal. I had shingles earlier in the year that was a very unfortunate time, but I made it through. That about all for me health wise.
I have wrote a lot so ill save that for my next post……until then
School: I’m a sophomore in college finishing my basics and a semester away from applying for my program. I take all these classes and I know they are meant to test you, but I am unable to pass them. I come to every class, do the work, study and am still failing constantly. My program puts so much pressure on the students, that it just makes classes that much more stressful. There is always that thought in the back of your mind “what if I can’t pass.”
On the bright side I applied for another job on campus to be an RA…..and I got it. That means no more cleaning dishes after this summer.
Speaking of summer, I’m spending my summer taking classes…here I come anatomy 2 hours 4 days a week, with 2 lab days on top of that. Plus another online class, tally all that up and it adds to 8 credits.
Friends: I ended my high school career with five really good friends. After my first year of college we all were pretty close, but sadly this year some of our group has drifted apart. Over the summer some unfortunate events happened causing a rift in the friendship, it was all quite stupid and petty, but some are still holding on to a grudge. I think everyone should have a best friend….I know I have at least one. She is my “person” we get each other’s jokes when others don’t and laugh about nothing. She is the one person I never get tired of. She is so crazy and fun I couldn’t imagine my life without her in it. She has had some barriers in her way over the past year. I was lost as to how to help her until I realized I can’t. I can support her in whatever she chooses, but ultimately she has to make the decisions. Sometimes I think though what if she never gets out of the rut she is stuck in, she will always be my best friend no matter what, but she worries me sometimes. She tends to get down on herself, but she needs to know what an amazing woman she is and how she has so much going for her, and that one day she is going to be the greatest mom and wife. She will do great things!
I also have another close friend who has definitely grown on me through the past two years; she has had a lot of drama lately for her. From a hard break-up to losing her step dad suddenly. She is my total opposite she is more reserved, highly intelligent, and a clean freak (I mean this w/love). At school I’m with here whenever I’m not at work, sleeping, or in class most of the time we sit and do nothing. We work well with each other because when she has been studying all day and has done nothing else, I make her take a break to do something fun. I mean we once stood in front of a mirror for an hour making faces at one another. Yes we both have time where we get on each other’s nerves, but like the saying opposites attract.
One last friend to mention and then I’ll move on. Now this girl is the most gorgeous girl you will ever see. She has the perfect smile, and is so driven. She works hard for everything she wants she currently holds five jobs now (crazy right)! She has struggled with her family at times, but somehow manages to never let it get to her. She has an amazing boyfriend that cares so much for her, their so cute it’s enough to make you sick. I’m hoping they get married soon!
Family: I have the best family in the world ( I know everyone say that, but its true)! My parent have always been there for me and my sisters, they have been at every soccer game, choir concert, teacher conferences, and even births. They have recently trying to lose weight and have succeeded tremendously. My dad of course lost weight like it was no body’s business, and my mom has done so well for women it takes longer, but she looks great! My dad is such a good dad, he is no typical guy…he loves the movie Mama Mia, and hairspray, he is a great cook, you can really tell he loves my mom dearly. Now for my mom she is seriously amazing! I love her we get along so well she is definitely another one of my best friends. She cracks me up with her sense of humor, I love spending time with her.
Jody, Jason, and Naomi are put in one group because their a family. I’ll start with Jody she is a great mom and a wonderful sister, I know she will always be there for me when I need her. We talk on a regular basis. She is yet another one of my best friend; it’s hard to describe her in words, but if I could it would be all good ones. She is very beautiful inside and out! Jason is the best brother in-law I could have asked for, he is competitive and such a great guy. He is the perfect dad and husband. Me and him get along really well! As for Naomi, she is the light of my life! She is my almost two year old niece, who is a little pistol. She is such a cutie and has a personality that will make anyone smile. She makes me laugh and smile so much. She has given her parents and family quite a few scares, but I’m so happy she has been so strong and stuck with us. I will love her forever. I hope they have more kids id say they have been doing a pretty darn good job with Naomi.
Jamie is my other sister we are close some days and then others we're not. She is so smart and also beautiful. She has hugs that could break your ribs. She is very caring and a great person and yes I love her. I do like her boyfriend Joe and hope the best for their relationship.
Health: I myself made a new year’s resolution, I know that most don’t work out, but I’m determined. I go to the gym everyday at 6am; I have been going strong with this for about a month and a week. So far I’ve lost 14 pounds I’m getting closer and closer to my goal every week. I hope to continue this journey and reach my ultimate goal. I had shingles earlier in the year that was a very unfortunate time, but I made it through. That about all for me health wise.
I have wrote a lot so ill save that for my next post……until then
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